undefinable

$16,000 - Houston Endowment Scholarship

$16,000 - Houston Livestock Show and Rodeo Metropolitan Scholarship

But I might not get either bc apparently I’ve received too much in grants and scholarships already!? Bogus. -.-“

$20,000

So incredibly blessed. :)

Another $20,000 in mini scholarships from UT for my first year alone!?

I’m lovin this school more and more ! Hook ‘em ! :D

SOSOSO INCREDIBLY BLESSED<3

Which means I am one of 200 kids in the U.S. who will be awarded $10,000 or 50 kids who will be awarded $20,000 for college ! Hehe, I feel so extremely blessed.

So I told my dad about it, and his face was extremely serious and straight at first, and then after about 5 seconds, he grabbed my mom’s hand with a huge grin on his face and said, “5,000 for you and 5,000 for me!” And they both started giggling/laughing and my mom started jumping like a fool. LOL ! Geeee, thaaaanks mom and dad. -.-“

Hehe, I guess busting your butt for these darn scholarship applications really does pay off !! :D

*dad wakes up from a nap

Mom: Why do you look so upset?

Dad: I had a bad dream..

Mom: About?

Dad: I dreamt that I was visiting you, but then I had to leave to go home to my wife.

*LOL ! Whaaat!?!?!? Hahahahah !

Mom: Hahaha ! So does this mean you want a girlfriend!?

Dad: No, only you.

I’ve been kind of crumbling lately. I’ve tried to be strong, but sometimes a girl just needs to fall, right?

I was sitting in the foyer-area of my house tonight. Just on the ground, thinking about everything. My mom came out and sat next to me. We talked and stuff, and I told her what was going on at school. She said, “I’m not worried about whether or not you’ll be number 1. I’m just worried about you,” her voice cracked, “Seeing you sad makes me sad. I haven’t been able to do anything all day because I’ve been so worried about you.” 

Even when I try to hide from them, my parents see right through me.

Our conversation shifted to… boys. Heheh, or rather, just a boy. :)

My dad came out and asked what was going on. We both smiled and said, “Nothing!” He said, “Don’t make me feel lonely in this house!” My mom and I laughed. My dad said, “Fine, I’m going away, then.” My mom said, “Nooo !! Come back !!!!!” with her arm outstretched. He walked off and my mother and I laughed again. Hehe. We continued talking, and then out of nowhere, we see my dad with a broom in his hand sweeping the floor about 3 yards from where we were sitting! LOL WTH!? My dad doesn’t sweep the house..!? This happened a few more times - he was getting water, he was going to the restroom, he was watching the TV on mute, etc. Hahahah, he’s so silly.

Then my little sister came out and started talking to me about that boy. Haha, and just cracking jokes and such and such.

Yeah, my family’s pretty great.

But I’m not really sure of what lies beyond it, and that kind of scares me.

Ahhhh, sweet freedom !

Hehehhehehehehe, goodbye you wretched DPS office ! See you in 6 years !

to Tien, My-Tram, and My-Huong for giving me a midnight call :)

to the 26 FB friends who actually wrote on my wall 

to the few other friends who sent me a text msg

to those who told me happy birthday at school

to Rebecca Salajan for the note :)

to Paula Tran for giving me call :)

to Richardson Pham for calling me (means a lot !)

to Kyle Raney for making me feel special, even if you were just being yourself ! :P

to Tyler Smith for cheering me up, not allowing me to do any work, buying me a Green Tea Frap, and staying up to mutilize my car when you had a Princeton interview the next morning :)

to the Starbucks cashier lady for giving me a free cake pop ! :D

to Nicole Copeland for being Megan and Amy’s secret spy -.-“

to Yuka Copeland for harboring Tyler, Megan, and Amy in her car and making me run around the parking lot screaming like a fool….. -.-” and for the card and gift :)

to the lady at Speedy Stop with the rose tattoos for giving me an official lottery ticket scratching coin

to Brady Hogan and Jeremy Dockan for giving me a call (even though it was late) and promising to sing me a song (this is a dictatorship !!)

to Megan Rarey for mutilizing my car and for the wild scavenger hunt at midnight when you had work the next morning :))

to my family for just being there<3

and to my very best friend, Amy (Van) Mai for surprising me at midnight, planning the whole car-mutilization and spontaneous wild scavenger hunt (including in it the best present ever !!! ;D) and throwing water grenades at me, for taking me to iHop at 2AM for a very fattening, very satisfying midnight snack even though you were ready to pass out at 9PM bc you haven’t had any sleep lately. And for sleeping over even though I passed out before we even got back to my house.. LOL

Even though I wasn’t in the happiest state this day, you few special people brought it up by a million. Thank you for contributing in giving me the best birthday I’ve ever had.

Especially to Amy and Megan for making me cry. You guys seriously don’t know how much it meant to me.

Heheh, and to those who forgot, I HATE YOU.

No, just kidding !! Hahah, things happen and I forget all the time, so you’re off the hook ;P

God bless ! :)

Yeah, I am missing first period..

I am in need of His guidance.

I don’t know where to look or which way to turn. I don’t know what to think.

Why am I so chicken?

I just want to know what to do. I just want to be completely happy with my decision.